Motivation, or lack of…

I have been struggling to motivate myself these last few days. I have needed to write another blog post, and actually I have some half written ones in my drafts folder, but none of them have seemed quite right.

I was praying today, and I felt like God was reminding me about my focus, and why I actually started with this blogging malarkey in the first place.

I never considered writing much before, and wasn’t sure what my style would be like. I sometimes feel like I have an ongoing narrative in my head, so I kinda just write it down even if it might not make much sense. When it’s in my head it sounds good, with my slightly sarcastic tone at just the right moment or my hilarious (I think) comment on parenting.

So far my blogging journey has been different to what I expected, I didn’t realise just how much time and commitment was required. In the beginning I was so caught up with the writing (don’t get me wrong, this is good), but I didn’t pay any attention to the promoting of my blog, I just thought that once it was out there it would be seen by so many people. The reality is slightly different, and it is this that I have struggled with. Keeping my facebook page and twitter account up to date can be a bit of a mission somedays, while I desperately think of something short to write about, that might grab someones attention. Then it’s easy to get stuck on twitter reading updates!

There are soooo many great blogs out there, and I am amazed by how you wonderful people write so much. (I would love to know your secrets).

However I need to remember who I am in all of this and not get caught up in what I think other people might be expecting. If I do that then I am not being true to myself.

I have so many names, wife, mummy, daughter, sister, aunty, friend. Vicky. And so many things to do, you know the routine stuff that needs to happen on a daily basis, and then I fit the blogging in around it, and in all honesty I want it to be good, to be well received, for people to really like what I’m talking about and get me, but I do need to be disciplined in this, and also I don’t want it to take over my life, I don’t want to be so busy writing about stuff, that I miss ‘the stuff.’

My focus is Jesus, I need to put him first in all things I do. I don’t always do it, this is when I muck up (this is why I muck up things quite a lot).

I can’t promise that I will write a post every week, and I can’t promise that I will post daily tweets or status updates. I do hope that you will stay with me though, and support me on my absolutely not perfect parenting being a Christian Mumma journey.

Vicky x